You Say we are together
Only words
No action
Our lives are like a fork in the road and the main path is us on a date
Then split our separate ways
I love you
Is what you tell me?
Secret I am
From your family & friends
Special yeah right to my kids
Not you
Relationship not us
Friends with benefits
Sure feels that way
I’m in a grey spot
I want you
Do you want me?
You say YES
You do NO
Just out of reach
I am a shadow that is not sure how to become real
Do I give up do I try more?
I am ready to give up
But love has me captivated in the hopes you will one day truly love me
You say we are together only words

I burn to be more to you
Everything I have ever wanted is wrapped up in you
I have you but yet just out of reach
Like a kid in a candy store with no money
Thoughts run through my head
Why not me?
Am I not good enough?
Maybe he is not sure he loves me
Then don’t tell me
Why not me?
I thought you loved me and you wanted me?
I am so confused on your thought of what a relationship is
Is it me?
Am I not what you want completely
Is it you being scared
I sit and wonder with doubt
Should I waste this much time?
I am full of worries
Why me?
My kids attached
I thought you were different but wonder if I was wrong
I love you, but wonder
I am ready to give up
Love has me captivated in the hopes you will one day truly love me
Captivated by the hopes that one day you will truly love me
You say we are together
Only words
No action

Explaination: This one was probably the most hurtful one that I wrote in a while. I had tears streaming and my heart was broken, I soaked the paper from tears, but I wrote and wrote until it made me feel better. I hope that you will take this as inspiration to let your feelings flow on paper if you have no one to talk to.

Forever Mine

Forever Mine
Strong Feelings
Can’t stop thinking
Of you
Forever mine
I hope
Cuddle me
Embrace me
Kiss me
Always on my mind
I hear your voice
Heart jumps
Blood pumps fast like rain hitting your head
In a storm

As I lay in bed I wonder
How come
You keep me at bay
What should I do?
Then I remember

How I felt
When I hear your voice
Heart jumps
Blood pumps
Hands sweat
Head spins
I want you

I love you
Strong feelings

Are you worth it?
Can’t stop thinking of you
Forever mine
I hope
Embrace me
Kiss me
Cuddle me
Yes
I will wait for you

Forever Mine


Explanation
This one was one that I wrote when my Bf at the time couldn't figure out weather or not we were going to stay together weather or not he could except the commitment, love and my children. It was a hard process to go through when you love someone with so much love, but don't get it in return. Just remember always stay true never settle! Much love

Life

February 18, 2009

Life
Has its ups and downs
You are in love
Then he breaks your heart
You think it is OK maybe one day he will realize that he is the one that is not worthy of you
Always know you can do better
You are better
Never allow someone to break your spirits
You’re happy
Then your world has an earthquake and you are unhappy
Life is crazy and will always be that way
Never think you got life figured out it will fall apart in your lap
Never think that you are not worthy
You are
Never let someone hurt you to were you think that you can’t recover
There is someone out that that will love and cherish you
Always remember that you are worth more then you give your self credit for
Life is good
You have your health you have your family
You are strong
Life has its ups & downs
Remember you are WORTHY of being treated like an angel
Don’t settle
You won’t truly get the worth of your life if you settle
Life in a nut shell


Writters Note: This was written as most of my stuff with alot of emotion. I need inspiration to write most of that comes from break ups or hard spots in my life.

Tears *Language

Tears running down my face like a waterfall
Heart shatters into pieces
I try to collect them and hold them together
As I think of your words
“Just a time out, reevaluate the situation, I love you though” FUCK THAT
It hurts the pain is unbearable
Seeing you, hearing you, smelling you. Not touching you other pieces breaks like a plate hitting the floor when I think of what the morning will bring.
Why did I let this happen?
Why did I break the wall?
Promising myself never again
I can’t put myself threw this pain again
EMOTIONAL SUICIDE
“Just a time out, reevaluate the situation, I love you though”
Shattering as those words come flying at my heart like a dart at a balloon.
Tears falling like a water fall
Pieces fall just as fast
Emotional suicide
Never again will I allow myself to feel this pain.


Explanation
This one came to me after my boyfriend of almost a year decided that we needed a time out.
I was devastated he had told me that he loved me. I didn't mean to get hurt by him we were suppose to just be out having a good time together, but they say when your not looking for love it bites you on your butt. I hope that no one goes through the pain of a hurtful breakup.

Remember when you are feeling emotional but express in words verbally for whatever reason. Write it, it is an escape.