A little bit about me

Hello I am a single mother that is 23 (will be 24 on the 23rd of March) of 3 children they are 4-1/2, 3-1/2, and 20 months. I have always turned to Poetry and writing as my escape from reality which is were I get my Title Escape with Poetry. I started writing when I was about 7 years old. My mother passed away when I was 5 and I got sent to a Grief camp for children and the councilor notices that I wrote a lot and gave me a special book and explained to me how to let thoughts flow and write them down instead of bottling them up. It is my escape from everything.
If I could tell you one thing about writing is connect with your inner self and just let it flow on paper it doesn't have to look neat or be pretty this is what you work from when you make your final draft. I use the web technique a lot. Where you put whatever it is that is bothering you in the middle of a paper turned landscape then you put a circle around it and put some stems so it kinda looks like a spider web and you just put your thoughts off of the stems. You can take this and make your poetry or story or whatever out of it.
I will try to post a new writing piece every few days unless I run it to a writers block. I also will answer whatever questions you have.
Thank you for visiting me and I hope this lets your creativity run
Creative Dani

My Mind Is Racing

My mind is racing
What do I do?
Do I believe you or the black in white?
I love you
But are you truthful
You’re past points to NO
You said you have changed I want to believe you but do I
I am nauseous
I can’t eat
I want to cry
I love you damn it
What do I believe?
I want to believe you
Oh do I want to believe you
I love you damn it
I was afraid of this I was afraid that you were going to hurt me
Did you play me like the past?
Or is it really not like that
What to do?
I sit in the dark and think
I love this man
Once again I get fucked
I should have known you were to “good” to be true
You say it is bullshit
But is it
I love you damn it but now you have to prove it

Explanation:
This one like much of my recent stuff comes from another time in my relationship with this great guy when he wants to be makes me feel not good enough. I couldn't tell him what I was thinking because it was the middle of the day and we were both at work. So I expressed it in writing.